Sunday, February 28, 2010

Roatan

Your shores are but a distant dream
Each memory like a grain of sand
I cannot wash clean of your beaches

every light reminds me of your sun
I flip the switch searching out the horizon
I no longer sway with each gust
The wind cannnot penetrate these walls


Being back in BK has been a bit of a shock to my system. I've never considered myself one to laze about much, but yet I find myself yearning for a hammock. The hand crafted threads cradling me as I sway gently in the warm breeze. The sounds of bob marley cooling my spirits as I drift away in a sea of content. The only hustle is from the scurrying of the crabs as they make their way back to land while the moon reminds us of what has passed and what is to come.

My mind is not a blank slate, no, it is free to frollick in its own maze. Kicking up long forgetten memories of days past and adventures that have yet to come to fruition. There is so much to discover and yet I could be content wasting my days right here.

A foreign smells enters my nose like the most pungent of smelling salts. Bob Marley is silenced, the beat replaced by a constant rumble. My toes no longer feel the air whistling through them. My eyelids feel the light of the sun beating against them, pulsing as the clouds and sun play peek-a-boo.

I open my eyes to my distorted image reflected off chrome. My head is perched on the shoulder of the person next to me; Next stop Canal street.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Vida Estreña

Each day we have a chance to do something great. Some days we choose to live that potential on the couch. Other days we choose to fill serving, not for ourselves but, for the betterment of our common man.

I have experienced many such days in this Island off the coast of Honduras. I have seen the faces of children who hold the possibilities of the world before them. Who knows which of them could make an imprint on this world or even a single soul. Right now they are just kids hitching a ride to get to school.

My eyes needed a checkup as things were out of focus. I needed a new prescription and have been working my way back to 20/20 the last 1/2 a year. What I have opened my eyes to through this last week isn't revolutionary though my words make it seem so.

This is the sort of things that poets and songwriters live for. This is the reunion with a friend you never knew you had. This is the chance to see the world through the eyes of a kid; where pools compete with turquoise blue oceans and bedtimes are still hurdles to overcome by any means. This is taking the chance and living this one day like none before or after matter. Most of all it is: doing when you don't have to, doing when you don't want to, or sometimes not doing at all.

***
Today was something out of a movie or a dream. It seems that the writers were determined to write twist and turns to keep things interesting. Every good movie needs a chase scene so the hero can show his cool under pressure. A good movie needs complex characters on the ropes with nothing to lose. Every good movie has a love story at its center to make the audience care. Most of all it needs to feel complete while leaving some things to mystery.

Life has a strange way of working things out; Humans have a strange way of complicating life.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Dynamo in an adventure with the kayak

My early teen years I went to camp and always looked forward to the "white water" rafting. I felt like a kid again, trying to explore the limits today. The house is on a beachfront , however, the deepest water I have encountered is about 3 feet. There is a reef that protects the land from most of the extremes the sea has to offer. For some reason the stormy weather felt like the perfect time to make advances to the reef.

I observed the waves before as they crashed along the reef line. The rain had swollen the bay enough when combined with the high wind gave rise to some waves on this side. I paddled out on 3 seperate occassions to try my hand at riding waves. I had varying levels of success; my kayak turned over twice.

My third time out I sought to explore yet another part of the bay. I went east from the pier and started paddling. While I was out there the waves became a bit rougher, but nothing I couldn't handle. I was fixated on the huge waves crashing on the reef; I found the rocking from the waves was relaxing.

I looked back to land and realized that i wasnt where I expected to be. My daydream like state and the stronger currents brought me out farther than I wanted to be. I dont believe I was ever in danger, but, I came close to it. When I got to land I saw the group talking to a local. She had become worried about my course and wanted to be sure I knew what i was doing. Just last week someone was sucked out to sea and needed to be rescued.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Honduras: Day 4

Storming Weather

I dreamt of pancakes that night.The lobster forecast fortold by the fisherman was on point. It rained all night and the wind was still whipping up something awful. I was ready decked out in full rain gear, swim trunks and wind breaker.

I leaned on the wind, it held me up, it felt like I was soaring. My mind free of the 9 to 5. Puffed up by the wind I felt larger than life. My worries being swept away as each breath of the earth passed through me. Soaking wet from head to toe as the rain washed over me. Scrubbed clean by the wind and baptised by the rain, I am.

The sun finally poked through, the wind died down, the rain let up. I walked down the pier back to the house ready to face the day. I made breakfast for the troops : scrambled eggs with ham, ham-cheddar omlete with bacon on the side.

I threw my swim gear on and hopped into the kayak determined to ride a wave. The stormy weather had kicked the sea into another gear. I attacked the waves did my leg was asleep and my arms were like noodles.

I joined the rest of the party at the mangroves that blocked access to the rest of the beach. In my previous adenture with the waves I saw a path through the mangroves; I decided to scout out the uncharted territories.

The route was eerie, like something straight out of a hollywood movie. The path through the mangroves was windy, dank and dark. There wasn't anything particularly special about it , but, it was real cool.

Honduras: Day 3

Perdidos

The sky was clear and the sun came in a flash, just as it had left the day before. The first order of business was food shopping. The order before that was to find the super market; Easier said than done. There is only one main road on the island but we missed the supermarket on several passes. "Un consultir por favor" was the order of the day as we asked for directions to the mythical market.

It was just as hectic as I imagined it would be with people from 3 different households. Four thousand limpera and a full shopping cart later we were back to the house. This particular trip required big guns so I ran back for the golf cart. I knew how to go forward but not reverse. I required help to figure out how to change gears. Once I got moving it felt just like my prius.

The security guard informed us that a fisherman would be coming in about an hour. That was 11am. Everyone failed to consider CPT. It was after 1 when we headed out to find some local produce and fish. We were roped in by the "only one road" mantra, it took us 3 hours to find the way.

We were richly rewarded once we arrived. At night we dined like kings: roasted red snapper, brazillian rice, fried plantains.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Honduras: Day 2

Exodus

The 2nd day kinda folds back to the 1st as I woke at shady Hotel Ceiba
Feeling quite cold; a sensation I had hoped I left under a foot of
snow in Brooklyn. Dunkin donuts was the first stop on the gringo
agenda. This was the low point of the day. It was like animals in the
zoo as locals passed by looking at us through the glass.

Before leaving the mainland it was time to head to a nearby
supermarket for some essentials. The most amazing part was the fresh
produce at super low prices. Honduran currency is about 18 or 20 to 1
US dollar, a 30 lempira pineapple is a godsend. Grocery shopping was done
with just enough time to hurriedly check-out and hop into a cab.

The cab took a circuitous route to the Ferry that was supposed to only
be 3 blocks or so away from the Hotel. The proximity of the docks to
the hotel was highly exaggerated. There was plenty of time to
purchase tickets and go through security. Two curious events occurred
with security. I was the only one during my time there who was
frisked. The booze was confiscated to deter any breakouts of boat
parties.

The ferry ride to roatan may soon be cooped by a theme park to replace
the death drop or superman: the ride. As the boat pulled from dock a
crew member handed out barf bags. I thought this was just a souvenir
of sorts till the boat really got moving, the reckless speed and
undulating waves made for one heck of a ride.

The downside to the ride was the marauding Texas grandmas who sat a
row away. The beef jerky-like tanned, tramp stamped, shit-talking duo
almost accomplished what the exhausting ride could not. Their
conversation ranged from make-up advice to the last biopsy. I was
really over with them when they went zoo exhibit on a tiny kid.
Perhaps it would be their reaction to any kid, which still doesn't
make it right.

Near the port of Roatan were two shipwrecks. I haven’t investigated
into the oddities as yes. The working theory is that they are there to
promote the growth of coral.

The ride to the house was windy and fairly treacherous at the un-policed
80k speeds around blind turns. This was only topped by the near
vertical drop down the dirt road to the garage which was still .5
miles from the house down an un-driveable boardwalk and dirt road.

Lunch was at a resort with multi-race babies at the preferred topic of
conversation. After lunch I kayaked and used the flinstone paddle-boat
machine for about 3 hours. The sun dropped closer to the horizon and
flashed green before it disappeared for good.

--
http://humandynamo.blogspot.com/

Monday, February 15, 2010

Dispatch From Honduras: Day 1

This feels just like it used to when I worked in jersey and lived in
BK. The crack of dawn in another cold month as if the rest were just
dress rehearsals. The 4am alarm is like old hat and the calls from the
warm covers are barely distinguishable muffle by my luggage. This time
is different because Ia am off to a beautiful land and people; a long
way from the stripmalls and boredom of Parsippany.

Everything goes as planned and I find myself at lee's a half hour
early.Our merry band was soon off to Newark Airport where we dined on
the finest overpriced chain food. The second act came in the form of a
continental breakfast of egg and cheese and fruit. I was in and out of
consciousness for the entire flight.

A cab picked us up at the airport and we began our trek. We stopped off at a local joint, there was no menu, they just brought out food:
1. A spicy soup with jicama
2. some rice and beans
3. fried chicken
4. Thin strips of steak
5. Bread fruit

The ride from San Pedro was one big game of chicken on one lane roads
carrying two-way traffic. It was like the morning or afternoon drive
through any busy metropolis with road work, insane pedestrians and
crazier drivers.

Ceida a port city north of San Pedro was the destination for the
night. Hotel Ceidà, a 5 story hotel, which made motel 6 look like a
resort living was where I laid my head down for the night. The TV came
fully loaded with cable. I got to see Nate the Great win his 3rd
straight dunk contest.

Content with the only honor bestowed on a Knick these days I drifted
off to bed. A few hours later a foreign feeling came over me, there
was a chill in the air. I woke to the great delight of still having
most of my organs, to the reality of a 50 deg night, I wept a little
as I was forced to cover-up with a blanket.

--
http://humandynamo.blogspot.com/

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Broken

It's tough out there for everyone right now. I am sure everyone has heard the sad stories of people losing job or being stuck in crappy ones. Whether it is low pay, bad commute or just a crappy day, we have all been there.

Keysie was venting to me today and inspired this poem.

Body weary from long days commute
Aching from years of neglect
A dick, a bitch, a tool, a fool, My boss
Dead-ended due this economy
fucked up from the philosophy
See this is my cross to bear
while fat cats have no care
living large,bailed out on my dollar
take the path of college, be a scholar
now I am stuck in the middle
paying the way for those who diddle
back ache from each bump i travel
riding the pine with the rabble

Broken but not beaten
the battle is lost
the war is not over

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Holiday Flowetry

The holidays tend to be tough for lots of people and it proved to be difficult for me as well. It is a time to be with family and friends and we all know that the people we care about most are the ones who screw with our heads the most. I don't have basketball during the winter to get my frustrations out so I turn to my poetry. There is a lot more stuff to come, but, this is what is ready right now.

Strange Times

We living in strange times

Black president in white house

While black residents cant buy one

still in hoods and red lined

Checkbooks balanced with red lines

Wars in the name of Freedom

Battles in the name of peace

Brave souls "stoplossed"

Hundred thousand of their lives lost

To revenge 3 thousand of our own


No longer reserved

Now your chance to serve

Your city Your country the world

Peace prize handed to a man at war

At war with the world his party

and common sense

Things aint be so common since

That fateful day that scarred us all

Bravado is no more the norm

Wound still fresh and sore

We will never heal in the strange times

Scars are peeled exposing the raw

Time to treat that wound

Bring the nightmare to an end


Choices...

Everyday we on the run

From the hustla on the corner

To the corner office

Playing the game of life

Got a choice to leave the hood

On the slab of the coroner

Or a Primetime baller

Chance is on the first

Unless you can "Just do it"

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

First outing alone

I don't usually roll anywhere unless I am with someone. I in fact did this somewhat reluctantly. It just feels weird to be completely solo; I’ve heard that people like to go where everybody knows your name. The one exception to all of this is when I take long walks through the city. Here I am at the tea lounge with a cup of chai - in a seat for one - waiting for the show to begin.

This lounge wasn't my first option. I scoured the pages of L Magazine and NY Mag for different spots to go to. I was seriously disappointed when I realized that it was too late to check out the "Wu BQ" in Williamsburg, I mean really, an event with a DJ spinning Wu bangers and server grilled meats. A great sense of despair fell over me till I saw "Beatbox Guitar" was scheduled at the Tea Lounge.

A two man band with a beatbox artist and a guitar player, sounds like a decent idea. What if this bad also guest starred a belly dancer; A 5'7 beauty that moved to the beatbox as if it were her heartbeat. I believe this is the closest approximation to heaven that I will ever see.

I was pleasantly surprised when her "twin" came on stage for a solo performance. I actually wasn't sure this was a different person, as she went by the same name, till I saw the hummingbird tattoo that adorned her back and right side. To close out the set the set of "twins" came out to do a performance in stereo. Yeah.

The guys with the instruments were also talented. I hear that they will be at BAM this Saturday. I hope they bring the twins.

I went to the pisser during intermission and drew the one with the broken lock. Pissing with the door open, my dreams have come true. I hear the door open and shut midstream. When I walk out I am pleasantly surprised that it was a chick I'd noticed earlier.

As I passed my I let her know about the lock. She went in to verify my information then walked out and stood outside looking perplexed. Noticing a damsel in distress I doubled back and offered my security services. She accepted my offer to guard the door for her, unfortunately, I was not able to turn this masterpiece of chivalry into bedding her. I am still disappointed to this day. She had 2 friends who were just as good looking, my loss.

After the music and dancing I didn't want to head home so I chased the chai with a glass of Proseco. I didn't find any answers at the bottom of the glass and there wasn't another act coming so I headed home.

Noble

The right and the just

Cause and title of the righteous

The Kings and the Ghandis

Peace makers and freedom fighters

War presidents and escalating troops

Half lies and half truth

Secret wars and collateral damage

A democracy failing

Its people and its ideal

Old men cast young lives

The dedicated the valiant

The last option to topple tyrants

Still nothing Nobel in war

Monday, November 16, 2009

The Gap

There has recently been a lot of lamenting about the economy and for good reason. The list of obvious ills is well known, but what the heck:

  1. Unemployment is up
  2. Savings rates are in the negatives
  3. Foreclosures at record rates
  4. US deficits are sky-high

These are only symptoms of larger problems in our society and government; problems that we can all see and sense and agree on. I have to borrow an idea from my favorite MSNBC host Rachel Maddow. She has previously noted that there are certain issues that are so inflammatory that both ends of the political spectrum take sharp turns and run into each other.

I mention this because the tea parties have a lot of things right. Where we depart company is the focal point of their righteous anger is the government where I would say it’s the corporations. Our government has been corrupted by capitalism.

Our economy at this point and for the years I've been around has been designed so we serve it. We have been sold a bill of goods that equates company and Wall Street profits to economic success. This is the continuation of trickle-down theory which refuses to die even after being proven wrong. Trickle-down is the cousin of disaster capitalism for which the cannibalism phase is a natural outgrowth.

This has become all too real to me recently over the last 6 months as people close to me have lost their jobs. This has ranged from recent college grads to my mom who has been working forever. These people have or will be without health insurance as long as they are without jobs. It is getting easier and easier to fall through the gaps in our society as the social safety nets have been completely shredded. I believe it is time for us to reassess our social contracts and constructs, to refocus our energies on supporting and advancing individuals over corporations. To continue to have these gaps is irresponsible, embarrassing and just plain stupid. It’s time to fill in the gaps.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

I and Love and You

I've re-entered the dating scene after what has been a long hiatus; actually I am not even sure that I can consider what I used to do as dating. So far I have met and gone out with two women. The first one was one and done; the story of the second is still being written.

The first thing I've realized in this newfound dating life is that my lifestyle is not conducive to meeting eligible women:

  1. I have weird hours
  2. I'm about 60 in my head
  3. I'm quite timid on first contact

The weird hours are an obvious detriment. I end up being a complete bore as I wake at 5am and am unable to effectively communicate after 9:12pm. I'm home at 4:30 most days at which point I never feel like dragging myself to a happy hour and such. Half the time I feel like strangling someone who cut me off or people who park like assholes on my block.

I'm obviously still a spry 28 year old but which 28 year old uses "spry" to refer to themselves. I'm pretty steady and reliable and I tend to carry myself that way. My first choice of a car was a sensible hybrid, I only considered spinners after I saw my cousin's fisher price first Escalade. I like a good drink in moderation - I'm getting bored describing how boring I am.

I've always joked that I would take Martha Stewart over Alicia Keys, but, I am beginning to think I may like older women; someone more my speed. I would come home after a long day and I would call Martha over for a glass of red wine. We'd have some small talk about politics, food and the undue corporate influence in our society and both of us would be tuckered out at 9 or so.

The last and certainly not the least of my problems is that I am shy on first contact. I also can't understand rejection or being rejected. I am sure that I am better than 98% of the bozos out their yet I have experienced rejection. What is worse is the type of rejection I've been party to.

I feel like I have been dealt the weirdo card a couple times. Kinda like the pimple you find on your nose and ignore with the hope it just realizes it isn’t welcomed. It would have been easier on me if I got a call that went something like this: "I realize that you're a great guy and you would be wonderful for me, but I'm whack. I don't want you to waste anymore of your valuable time on a lost cause like me. Goodbye." It doesn't have to be word for word but you get the idea.

I've been given lots of advice along the way. The best has been to regain my confidence. To do that I must come to the realization that I am the most interesting man in the world. I started off that quest by finding interesting things about myself, everything, and then breaking some of my tendencies. I started with a trip to a semi local bar and am trying to actively engage people I meet at the green market. I am sure that this is like anything else, it takes work. Eventually I will reach the point where I find someone I can say those words to "I and Love and You."

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Txting iz cool

My G1 introduced me to texting and I have been hooked ever since. I am now a crazy texting monkey. I've been a victim of mistaken identity quite a lot lately and gotten crazy texts as a results, enjoy.

I am not sure who this is, but, this person decided to share the following words of wisdom.

Random Text: Batman Must sound incredibly gay in Fance. Think how he must sound with a french accent, Je suis Batman! (I am Batman!)

Yet another random texting jewel.

Random Texter: Hello =)

(It's rare for someone to start a text to me with a smiley face)

Me: Hi. Sorry, I don't recognize the number...

(I tend not to remember things.)

Random Texter: Lol cuz u don't have it..lol it's anthony
- Re: Hi. Sorry, I don't recognize the number...

(What is up with all the lols? Also, the only Anthony I know, I hate. Give me my damn basketball back!)

Me: Anthony? I am at a loss here

(Really, I want my damn basketball back!)

Random Texter: Lol from brooklyn ur boo on the low ur 5th grade boyfriend
- Re: Anthony? I am at a loss here

(My boo you say? There is the damn "lol" again. Boyfriend, boyfriend? Having a boyfriend at some point in my life would likely be something I would remember)

Me: Yeah. You have the wrong number

Random Texter: Oppz sry lol
- Re: Yeah. You have the wrong number

(Really dude. "Oppz sry lol" I know I can't spell or construct full sentences, but that is ridiculous. "lol," really, "lol?")

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Rhode Island Adventurer

Spent some time with Larry, my Brother, his wife and my niece this weekend. We all took a last minute trip to Rhode Island to frolic on seaweed filled beaches and trying not to fall off cliffs. I would love to write all about the adventures but I am too lazy right now.

Jesus Fish...


I'll take a photo of you taking a photo of J taking a photo of you...

Hugs!

I love this one cause she looks smoked up


mmmmm young wine


Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Waxing Poetic

Visited Baltimore this past weekend. I visited the Great Black in Wax Museum while I was there and was inspired to write this poem. I didn't know what to expect when I went to the Museum but figured it was some soft-shoe around history that focused on "accomplishments." All I knew before going there was that they had Obama in wax so I prepared myself for the worst. It's still very rough, but, it's probably best kept this way.


Ripped from lives, land and loved ones

Betrayed by own, handed to the man

Shackled minds and bodies

Tortured, raped and dismembered

Remembered languages, religions and customs

Left on distant shores

For the land of the FREE, LIBERTY, JUSTICE

Broken minds, spirits and backs

From sun up to sun down and again

Land of opportunity only cause others lack

Wealth of nations owed to every crack of 9 tails

Picket fences, backyards and 2.5 kids

Built on hundreds of years of hopes and tears


Jim Crowed and left back

Force fed and then crack

Hits the streets with Strawberries, 9s

Now cops on the beat

With firearms aimed and night sticks

Swinging free

Like the strange fruit hanging, limbs loose

Create our own middle passage

Packed in Ghettoes and slums

Gunned down by fellow brothers

For whips, ice and pride

Past lost in the hustle

Ripped from Lands, Lovers

Betrayed by fellow brothers

Land of the FREE, LIBERTY, JUSTICE

Built at the tip of 9 tails

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Where do your Health Care Premiums go?

CEO compensation compiled by the AMA in an article about the hard times hitting health care CEOs.

http://www.ama-assn.org/amednews/2009/images/gbisc0601a.pdf

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

The Health Care Debate Part 1

America needs Universal, Single-payer, and “Socialized" health system. That was likely the most anticlimactic statement; I'm a big lefty and everyone knows that. Before I go on I must note that no plan being currently considered meets these criteria. There are many reasons to switch to the system I want; at the same time I realize some have concerns.
I will not every pay any attention to the unrealistic/outrageous questions that some ask.

The Other side:
1. How much is this expansion going to cost us?
The short answer is less. The long answer is that we don't know. The fact is that we already have the highest healthcare costs and the poorest outcomes in the "developed" world. Countries with Universal systems use their bargaining power to rein in costs. For instance the very same drugs cost less in Canada; savings range from 20 -45%.

2. What about long waits? I've heard they ration in Canada and those other socialist Lands.
Health insurance already rations. We judge people's worth to society based on their pocketbook. Fat cats get the best treatment. Health insurance workers decide whether people should have based on their bottom line, they even have metrics that are judged by Wall Street money in/payments for procedures.

3. Those damned illegals will use it!
"Illegals" already use the emergency rooms and that comes directly from you and I. The point is to formally account for these costs. Its best to treat people before a minor thing escalates into something more dangerous. Treating all with respect and the best care is the compassionate thing to do.

4. The government can't run anything!
We come together as a society because the whole is greater than the sum of our parts. The government is not a mythical giant living on Capitol Hill, we are the government. Our family members serve in the armed services, post offices and fire houses. All of these are government agencies that play vital roles in our everyday lives and do so admirably.

5. I'm happy with my Doctor can I still see her/him?
Hopefully. Many doctors over the years have shifted between and off the various Health Insurance plan. This is a free country, just as you want a choice of plans; Doctors want the freedom to move between networks.

Health care is a right, without it, life is not possible, liberty and happiness cannot be pursued. Right now we are carelessly discussing and calculating the worth of those without health insurance. People are standing up and shouting that fellow Americans are not good enough. I believe our obligation to protect Americans should go beyond military might; the health of everyone on our soil is just as significant.

Thursday, July 16, 2009